Today, turned out to be a good day

Today has been good so far.
Lately I have felt no urge to hang with people or need to be around people. And I fear I have accidentally pushed people away because of this, so I am currently in attempt of trying to notify them that I still love them dearly, I just need a bit of space at the moment.

I still havn't bought a new phone. My mum only just arrived home from her 2 week holiday to Italy, London and other places. She brought me home some krispy kremes which I reluctantly ate, and my favourite Harajuku perfume. I really have missed her, and I'm glad she's back, it all seems to be back in flow now she's home.

I have been potting around my room today, cleaning everything up as I love doing. I really do enjoy being neat and clean, clutter makes it hard to think and move around. I just vacuumed my carpet because I hadn't in a while, and the feeling [not just the physical feeling] gets better every time. I think I will adapt a new habit to vacuum my room every day, or every two days. In my usual routine, I clean my room every day, but cleaning my carpet was rare. This will change. I think it will be a lovely change to my room aura.

dealing with compliments

How we respond to compliments is actually a very difficult process. If you do not genuinely feel as if you deserve the compliment, you will say thank you and assure them that they could do/are better, but the more compliments you receive, the more you realise that you really are what people say. From here on in, people swing one of two ways. They either start responding to compliments with ‘thank you’s’ and gratitude’s, silently giving themselves a pat on the back for their good effort, or they begin to attract more attention to themselves by re-stating the compliment to themselves instead of a thank you (or sometimes along with a thank you).


For example:
Jenny: “Wow Indie, you are so stunning! I love your makeup!”
Indie: “Thanks! I usually look better than this, but yeah my make up does look awesome”

When you receive a compliment, unless you are completely oblivious to how amazing you look/how talented you are/ whatever the compliment implies, you actually have to devise a statement that will thank the person complimenting you, but not enforce the idea that you are up yourself. You can agree with the compliment, but if you express that in the wrong context, you can come across as being an arrogant fool.

weather to a stone - verse

"The reasons that I live, the way that I live, are building up and they'll continue to grow
I will never run from where I stand even if it means I'm standing here alone
I've seen the best of 'em fall away, I've come to learn that even words written in stone can be eroded with time"

scream - verse

"Tired and beaten, voice withering away to nothing
I'm walking in the footsteps made by those who have been defeated
I've watched men and women made of steel get burned up as easily as dry leaves and left depleted
All of my heroes have been ruined or written out of history
I could be destined to fade away like so many before me
But as long as my heart keeps beating, I can't stop screaming
Silence, is violence
I'm bending, I'm breaking, I'm broken
I'm still alive"

owl's

note* none of the following photos were taken by me, they were found on various websites and I do not know who captured them.

I love owls. They are such placid-looking creatures, and have such large, vigilant eyes. They seem constantly alert and awake, I think this is a good trait to have.

Year 12

I am so excited about stage 2!
I have chosen my subjects, I am doing English Studies, Health, Tourism, Art Design semester 1 and Art Visual semester 2. I have a feeling I am going to enjoy my lessons. I would also really like to do a TAFE course for food and hospitality, but I'm not sure whether I will be able to get into one yet.
I love having plans and thinking about the future.

It Prevails - Brothers to the flames

''I am the author of my life.
And I'm writing in pen, and I can't rub out my mistakes.
If I could start again in life, I would repeat all my mistakes.
They make us who we are in this world.

Making changes everyday, but it seems so empty,
I try so hard, but I am only a man.
How much longer can my brow damn these beads of sweat before they sting my eyes?
Like time has shown me, so many times before.
How much longer can my will last me throughout this lifetime?
I struggle to find who I am anymore.

I know now that who I am is better than who I used to be.
If this is all I am, then so be it, this is all I can be.

There are many things that aren't what they seem in this world,
Friendship is the best example of these.
I find myself questioning more and more every single day.
How much longer can we hold our brothers to these flames?
And the people who have meant so much to us?

I know now that who I am is better than who I used to be.
If this is all I am, then so be it, this is all I can be.''